I’ve been watching you, the way that you watch people and I gotta say that I worry about you.
Yeah, you’re trying hard to get your life sorted. Trying hard to do things a whole lot better than how you have been doing them, but I worry that maybe you’re putting too much pressure on yourself, setting unrealistic expectations of yourself. I worry that all of this is making you miserable or at least not as happy as you could be.
I know that you know how all of this stuff works. You tell others how to do it all the time and you have seen that it works but you just can’t do it for yourself.
You are great at finding excuses and reasons why none of it will work for you. You label yourself as undeserving, introverted, as a procrastinator. All of these labels simply excuse you from taking your own advise, from taking a risk.
Being an introvert offers you an excuse to sit back and wait for someone to notice you rather than getting out there, demanding attention and doing it yourself.
Procrastination stops you from stepping up and taking responsibility for yourself.
This pursuit of the new vulnerable you is more about allowing yourself to be a victim than it is about you wanting to be a kinder, more empathetic, better liked person.
Discovering your vulnerability is not about finding ways to hurt yourself, its about accepting it and moving ahead because of it.
When you look at yourself and you don’t like what see, how it feels, that doesn’t make you unworthy, that’s your reason for doing something. That’s your ‘why’.
Dammit dude, stop holding yourself back!
What the hell are you really waiting for?
Lots of love,
PS: 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 ….